Moving from Utah to Washington

If you know me, you know I love Utah. I love the Rockies, the red dirt, the Wasatch Front, the arches, the greatest snow on earth, the grid system, and anything else there is to love about Utah, I do. 

I was born here. Everything that has made me who I am today was cultivated in and on this Land. We (the Land and I) hold pieces of each other. 

Over the last few years my husband had brought up moving multiple times, each time I pouted and said “no.” The final time he brought it up, I burst into tears. 

I knew it was time. 

This plan has been in the making for 10 months. For 6 of those 10 months I searched for reasons to stay, in a place that I feel I have done all the growing I can do. 

In October I was finally able to drop into the reality that we are leaving—it’s not a pipe dream…it’s really happening.(!)

I held a small ceremony in the belly of my favorite canyon in Moab. I set fire to my fears about moving and asked for a sign that it was time to go…a soft wind picked up and the clouds released the softest rain I’d ever felt. I sobbed the fears I had into the wind and rain and red dirt. 

Again, I knew it was time. 

Slowly yet somehow quickly things fell into place…one of my biggest fears is that I will get lonely and that missing my family may become too painful. When I finally vocalized this..3 days later we got a house right down the street from our closet friends. 

I asked my dear friend Courtney to perform a closing of the bones ceremony on me. To celebrate closing the chapter of my FAE program and the last 24 years spent in the only home I’ve ever known. 

Before we ended the ceremony I asked God and my ancestors again if this is really what we’re supposed to be doing…

“The opportunities you seek, won’t be found here. You must walk a new path.” A voice whispered. 

And with that I was unwrapped and reborn. 

It’s time to move on, time to get going. What lies ahead, I have no way of knowing. 

But whatever lies beyond this threshold is bigger than I can even imagine. I’m so excited for this new adventure. 

Washington (state) is our new place of residence, but Utah will always be my home.

Yes, I am still apart of the Mountain Time Midwifery team. It will just look a little different as I’m now our Fertility Awareness Educator.